2 Days Before Toefl

    It is kind hard for me to believe that only 2 days later I will be doing my toefl test in Pittsburgh. Facing a major test that is relative to my future, I always feel a little bit panic. I still remember  that during 8th grade, I was so afraid of the entrance test of high school for middle school students that I even had nightmares on the test!! So CRAZY! 
    I can not but face the reality. I have to do well on the test. I didn't doubt my ability of rocking the test earlier but now I can not be as confident as I was 2 weeks ago. Why? Literally speaking, one of the most major reasons is that I only get to take the test once. Or, I do not want to take the test, which lasts forever and ever, twice in a roll. Plus the expense is so high that I think it is kind ridiculous. Sadly, I only have the human rights to express myself. So as what Mrs. Brett would STRONGLY AGREE, one could not be interfered by others while making his or her or ITS own decisions, such as how much money ETS wants to charge millions of international students every year for taking the Toefl test.
    What could be the other main reason for me to panic before the test? Let me think... Thinking......I am afraid that I am going to mess all up, especially the speaking part and the writing part. Even though I could always express myself in a relatively comfortable way, it is still hard for me to be prepared and be able to talk on a unfamiliar subject to a computer for 45 or 60 seconds. Not to mention that I did not even practice for it. HAHA funny Zheru. For the writing part, I have never written a good essay in English in my entire life, which directs to the lack of the usage of different words and phrases while writing an essay. SO these are two of my major problems. And I did not pay attention to them at all until now, at this very moment. OM lourd.
    Plus, I don't even have a practice book of toefl!!!! Freaking out....
    Anybody thinks that I have the ability to get 100+ on the test? NO ONE. okay, i have to have faith in myself, right?Right. 
    My very last word, Buddha please guide me....  阿弥陀佛.